You really never know...

A couple months ago I posted something on Facebook about how my kids were driving me crazy.  If you are "friends" with me on FB, you know this is a very common occurrence with me.  Well, one of my FB "friends" is my cousin Todd who is a YWAM missionary in Jamaica and at that same moment he was experiencing a very scary storm.  He made a comment about how I shouldn't complain when there are things like that going on and of course I was offended and one of us "unfriended" the other (I don't even remember who it was at this point).  It was many weeks later that I realized we weren't "friends" on FB anymore and I just left it alone.  Well, last night I found out that he had been in a horrible motorcycle accident and was in ICU with head trauma.  My first thought was of course, "I hope to God that our last interaction on Facebook will not be the last".  I struggled to hold back the tears as I finished work and waited on more news.  This morning I found out that he is in a coma and my cousin Darin (his brother) has been told to "prepare" by the US Consulate.  I am praying for a miracle, that God will bring him out of this coma.  As hard as it is to think about, if he doesn't make it, I know he will be in the arms of Jesus and the happiest he has ever been.
Todd and I were always the grand kids who were going to do ministry or be missionaries.  He is in his late fifties, closer to my mom's age than mine, but I always felt that connection to him.  I went to Bible College and did not end up doing ministry (yet) and he became a missionary in Jamaica and has had a blast sharing the gospel and teaching kids how to play drums.
I am still in shock and trying not to think the worst but I can't help but write this.  YOU NEVER KNOW.  You never know if your last interaction with someone, whether good or bad, will be your last.  I've decided that once this sinks in more and I am ready, I'm going to call my dad.  I don't care anymore what has happened between us, who hurt who or what not.  I cannot live with the idea that he could be gone tomorrow and I would have to live knowing we hadn't spoken in months and months. 
I have a love/hate relationship with Facebook.  I love that I am able to watch my friends kids grow up through pictures, get connected with old friends and stay connected with new ones.  However, I HATE that words can be spoken...or written and just like that, two people can be disconnected.  I ask that we be more mindful of what we say on social media, that we think before we type.  More often than not, we type things that we would never say in person.  Sometimes that might be a good thing, but mostly not.  And when I say this, I'm talking mostly to myself.

I love you all.  Thank you for reading and for your prayers.

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