I Will Walk By Faith

Since Norm and I have begun to feel a call back to ministry we have started talking about what this means for us.  He will need more schooling, so we've been looking at what our options are.  We started to feel like there was a clear direction to our goal but yesterday it started getting foggy again.  As his wife, of course it hurts me to see him dejected and feeling "stuck" again.  I know it's frustrating to feel like you should be going somewhere but just don't know how to get there.

Yesterday afternoon I was playing play doh with the kids and staring at their beautiful little faces.  Most of the day, I'm pulling my hair out and plugging my ears because they're throbbing from the blood curdling screams.  Yet every once in a while, there is a sweet moment like that when I get to just watch them in peace and quiet and be tearfully thankful for all God has given me.  I was listening to Pandora and this song came on at that same moment...

Would I believe you when you would say
Your hand will guide my every way
Will I receive the words You say
Every moment of every day

[chorus]
Well I will walk by faith
Even when I cannot see
Well because this broken road
Prepares Your will for me


Back in college I saw Jeremy Camp perform that song and the story behind it is much more difficult and painful than the situation I'm in.  His wife was dying of cancer.  It gives me hope though.  Norm and I met in college.  We both had dreams of where we would be one day, definite callings in our lives.  Well...maybe him more than me.  I changed my major like 5 times.  ;)  After 8ish years, Norm is feeling that God is defining His original calling on his life.  At this moment, it's very unclear what to do or how; but I can speak for myself and say I am very excited regardless.  I know God has gifted my husband and will use him for His glory so, I will walk by faith....

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