Where did my babies go?

Last night I was looking at old pictures of the kids and thinking, wow...where did those little babies go?  People always say "it goes by so fast!" but when you're right in the middle of the "terrible 2's, 3's, 4's...it doesn't seem like it.  It's not until you're sitting on the couch one night waiting for your 5 year old to pick out a story that it hits you like a mack truck; wow, he's a little man now and in about 2 years he'll probably be as tall as me.  We went to tuck Kieren in and I looked at Zoe's little angel face, sleeping peacefully.  I almost don't even remember what it was like when she was a tiny baby and need to look at pictures to remind me.  Maybe God makes it that way for a reason because when I look at those precious baby photos, I almost want another one.  HA.  Then I wake up to the nazgul screams in the middle of the night and realize, nope, I'm done.  I have realized lately that I get distracted by the daily fighting, screaming and tantrums and suddenly feel like I have missed something.  Last night I asked Norm, "when did he grow up?".  "I don't know, last night maybe" he said.  I think about what it must be like for my mom...watching me get married, being in the room as I gave birth to Kieren, watching her grand kids grow up.  Wow, what a trip, right?
Last night I just felt like my heart was going to explode with gratitude for what God has blessed me with.  I love those babies (yes they will always be my "babies"), with all my heart.  How much more does God love us?  It's unfathomable.  It's unmeasurable.  I know I disappoint Him, make Him sad and probably angry at times.  He still loves me more than I can imagine.  Wow.  Just wow.

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