Forgiveness...not easy

I've always thought myself to be a forgiving person, I don't usually hold grudges and harbor resentment.  I have a distant father and it took me years to truly forgive him and let go of all that...I still email him pictures of his grandchildren and say hi occasionally even though he doesn't write back.  It's hard, it still hurts but I believe I've forgiven him.  I have been having a hard time with someone lately, growing feelings of resentment and tonight I realized wow, I need to forgive this person.  They have not asked for forgiveness and I'm pretty sure they don't even think they need to be forgiven...

I won't go too much into detail but basically I feel that this person has taken advantage of my husband over the past several years.  It appears they are not even aware that they have...but essentially they have taken a man with an incredible work ethic, heart for people and strong desire to provide for his growing family and drained it to the last drop.  Oh it's still there, don't get me wrong...but what I see is a man who has been used, not given the appreciation he deserves and help he has needed.  I think the hardest part is that they pose as a "friend" and do it all with an ignorant smile on their face.

When someone wrongs me, it hits me hard but when they wrong my family ohhh it cuts deep.  When you're married to someone you carry their burdens with them, their wounds are your wounds and their struggles yours.

I don't want to forgive but I know I need to...I know that if I don't it will eat away at me.  I know it won't happen tonight, hell maybe not this year but at least I know I need to.  That's the first step.

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