Spice of Life

Today we celebrated my Mom's birthday, went to see Mocking jay Part 2 with her and my cousin and it was really fun.  I didn't really see Norm much though so I was looking forward to our usual put the kids to bed then watch Arrow or something on Netflix time.  So when he ended up falling asleep when I was reading to Kieren I was pretty bummed.  I felt sorry for myself a little bit and then this song came to me that I heard Friday in the car that had tears streaming down my face.  It's one of my favorite songs by one of my favorite singers Christy Nockles, Still ...and goes a little bit like this... The more I get alone The more I see I need to get alone more, more Cause just when I think that I'm alone Your Spirit calls out to me And even silence has a song Cause that's when You come Sing over me Still, let me be still Let me be okay With the quiet in my heart Still, I want to be still I'm so quick to move Instead of listening to You Shut my mouth ...

This has been a year when I have encountered difficult circumstances and made choices I had at one point in life said I would "never" make. Our precious third baby was born on June 15th and at the 3 day home visit she had lost over 10% of her weight, which is not good.  My midwife mixed up a bottle of formula and said "here give this to her".  With a lump in my throat and tears brimming, I fed my baby formula for the first time ever.  The other two kids never had issues with nursing, my milk came in fine and there was enough.  Years ago I would have made some ignorant remark such as, "why would you give your baby formula when your body produces the best food there is?"  Now I knew why and felt like such a bitch for ever thinking that.  When your baby is starving and your body just isn't doing what you think it "should" for whatever reason, you do what you have to do to make sure your child is healthy damn it!  I have since been taking vario...

We’ve been really into watching Arrow on Netflix and unless you have seen it you’re not going to get this reference so I’m sorry.  Today I am feeling so angry and fed up with the public school system.  On my drive in to work I was thinking, you know if I was Oliver Queen I would walk up to that school (who is in my mind Malcolm Merlyn) and say in my deep altered voice, “you have failed this city” and when I say “city” I am of course talking about Kieren.  Let me back up a little…this year has been rough, it started with a teacher strike that delayed the start of school.  A couple weeks in I met with his teacher and she told me he is a grade behind in reading.  He tells us repeatedly “I hate school” and “I have no friends”.  I spoke with a neighbor who recently found out her son is dyslexic and they have been working to figure out what he needs to support him in school, he also receives tutoring outside school.  His teacher though has the “old school” ...